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She was a bitter
angry
lonely girl who hated her life
she escaped every minute
of each day
Smart enough to hide
behind barbed wire
fool neough to think
she could ever be free
* * *
I didn't like that
I wanted to change
but now I see the truth
behind the butterfly's retreat
* * *
I opened up;
I fought it
I gave up;
I gave in
I reached for best destiny
Loving
caring
always understanding
accepting of the most misunderstood
I was beautiful
I loved
who I was becoming
It was killing me
Dying... hurts.
* * *
I didn't like that
I said
"Never again"
and now there is truth behind butterfly wings
* * *
I'm burning the bridges
future
present, past
Can't regret what I'm doing
I learned from the best
No regrets.
Be selfish
save your own life
it's noble to sacrifice...
but death isn't nice
for them to give to you
She says
But I know better.
* * *
There is truth behind
a butterfly's wings
behind the soft
retreat back to cocoon
Call this a crash course
in all viewpoints of humanity
how many times have I said,
"I've been there"?
Now I'll know?
* * *
This will suck.
I'm in for a hell of a ride
take me higher, oh God
show me what it's like
to live without You
so long
that I die
Think maybe
someday
I'll return to You?
Do I have a reason?
I'm here
and there
too
Sometimes I hate our mother
why is the woman who raised us
such a bitch?
Yes
I know there are worse
but she hates the world
maybe that is my lesson to learn
* * *
I would sigh...
if only paper allowed
the butterfly
I've called that for myself
It seemed appropriate
maybe too much
more than I knew
exactly what I knew
Life is a journey
and I know too much
* * *
Have you ever burned your bridges?
I've been scared of myself
I'm scared still
though not afraid
* * *
I retreat behind my butterfly wings
psychedelic
blinding
I'm sorry I made you worry
--or were you even afraid?
Psychic,
you never said
* ~ * ~ *
I'll retreat into this hard-shell cocoon
that she cracked
and I crawled out of
I'll leave a window
and a door
but it protects me from the truth
or maybe I learn it inside
*~/*~/*
This is me bitter
lonely
angry
a selfish girl in life
hurting
but comfortable
I learned from the best.
I learned from your daughter, Mom.
angry
lonely girl who hated her life
she escaped every minute
of each day
Smart enough to hide
behind barbed wire
fool neough to think
she could ever be free
* * *
I didn't like that
I wanted to change
but now I see the truth
behind the butterfly's retreat
* * *
I opened up;
I fought it
I gave up;
I gave in
I reached for best destiny
Loving
caring
always understanding
accepting of the most misunderstood
I was beautiful
I loved
who I was becoming
It was killing me
Dying... hurts.
* * *
I didn't like that
I said
"Never again"
and now there is truth behind butterfly wings
* * *
I'm burning the bridges
future
present, past
Can't regret what I'm doing
I learned from the best
No regrets.
Be selfish
save your own life
it's noble to sacrifice...
but death isn't nice
for them to give to you
She says
But I know better.
* * *
There is truth behind
a butterfly's wings
behind the soft
retreat back to cocoon
Call this a crash course
in all viewpoints of humanity
how many times have I said,
"I've been there"?
Now I'll know?
* * *
This will suck.
I'm in for a hell of a ride
take me higher, oh God
show me what it's like
to live without You
so long
that I die
Think maybe
someday
I'll return to You?
Do I have a reason?
I'm here
and there
too
Sometimes I hate our mother
why is the woman who raised us
such a bitch?
Yes
I know there are worse
but she hates the world
maybe that is my lesson to learn
* * *
I would sigh...
if only paper allowed
the butterfly
I've called that for myself
It seemed appropriate
maybe too much
more than I knew
exactly what I knew
Life is a journey
and I know too much
* * *
Have you ever burned your bridges?
I've been scared of myself
I'm scared still
though not afraid
* * *
I retreat behind my butterfly wings
psychedelic
blinding
I'm sorry I made you worry
--or were you even afraid?
Psychic,
you never said
* ~ * ~ *
I'll retreat into this hard-shell cocoon
that she cracked
and I crawled out of
I'll leave a window
and a door
but it protects me from the truth
or maybe I learn it inside
*~/*~/*
This is me bitter
lonely
angry
a selfish girl in life
hurting
but comfortable
I learned from the best.
I learned from your daughter, Mom.
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An alternate version includes a message each for two other people, with the last line missing. I may post that one on Gaia, as I'm more inclined that they see it than not.
Mom will probably never see this one. Since when do I show her anything? I don't trust her not to take very piece of me she finds and try to use it as fuel. I foresee a lot of fighting between me and her, and frankly, I'd rather she not have a clue where I go or what I do online. I'm thankful now that I had the foresight to take my journals and diaries with me when I left; I'm sure she'd read them and blatantly try to use the words against me. Sometimes I hate our mother.
Done today, about three hours ago.
A scribble in MS Paint in the same feelings, if evocative of different ones: [link]
Mom will probably never see this one. Since when do I show her anything? I don't trust her not to take very piece of me she finds and try to use it as fuel. I foresee a lot of fighting between me and her, and frankly, I'd rather she not have a clue where I go or what I do online. I'm thankful now that I had the foresight to take my journals and diaries with me when I left; I'm sure she'd read them and blatantly try to use the words against me. Sometimes I hate our mother.
Done today, about three hours ago.
A scribble in MS Paint in the same feelings, if evocative of different ones: [link]
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Walking through the world, it's hard, when you understand, when you're not naive, but you don't hate, either. So many people angry, so many people sad. But we'll pull through, won't we?
We can hope for the best, and be sure not to hate if it all comes crashing down. I don't know enough about what you're going through, so I'll leave it at that.
We can hope for the best, and be sure not to hate if it all comes crashing down. I don't know enough about what you're going through, so I'll leave it at that.